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wander_realtaiI can't even begin to describe how hard it's been for me to get into the mindspace for creating art this week. I've done some sketching, but that's about it. I really hate when I get into an artistic rut because I start to feel guilty for not doing art. I start to feel as though I'm not fulfilling my purpose, doing the one thing that I'm at least somewhat good at. I know I wrap too much of my identity self-worth in this, but it's really hard not to.
I have been looking at some successful artists, such as Amy Brown and Jessica Galbreth (the latter of whom, I discovered, recently found religion and denounced all her previous work as satanic, claiming she was demon possessed when she created her pagan/goddes/faery oriented art... wtf. It gets hard to remember that not all Christians are of that sort when they're EVERYWHERE) Anyway, I digress. I was looking to see what might have made them successful. Seems to be having a broad range of venues, effective advertising, a recognizable style, and coherence in genre (i.e., faery art or pagan/goddess art, or some similar motif). My work is at least on par with theirs in skill level, but I tend to go all over the place with my subject matter, mostly keeping it fantasy/faery related, but with little coherence between the pieces to tie them together and make them recognizable as Amyla's art. Anyone familiar with Amy Brown's art, for instance, would instantly recognize her work by its subject matter and technique.
I've thought of this before, and am considering again the possibility of doing a series of faery pieces. Not necessarily the classical, Victorian-esque faeries you usually see, but faeries in my style-- a bit whimsical, a bit magical, a bit dark, a bit scary. Light and dark, refinement and chaos, beauty and predator in a single entity.
I've already got one that would be perfect for the series--
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Also, I just sketched a woman turning into a panther. Dunno if that'd fit in the series, but it was one of those images that hit hard enough to take me by the brain and shake me until I gave in and sketched it. It's kinda awkward looking still; I need to find references so I can refine, but I might pursue that as a painting as well. (Caution: enlarged version isn't work safe)
Won't have much time for painting today, of course, but I'll hit Monday at a run. Metaphorically speaking.
I have been looking at some successful artists, such as Amy Brown and Jessica Galbreth (the latter of whom, I discovered, recently found religion and denounced all her previous work as satanic, claiming she was demon possessed when she created her pagan/goddes/faery oriented art... wtf. It gets hard to remember that not all Christians are of that sort when they're EVERYWHERE) Anyway, I digress. I was looking to see what might have made them successful. Seems to be having a broad range of venues, effective advertising, a recognizable style, and coherence in genre (i.e., faery art or pagan/goddess art, or some similar motif). My work is at least on par with theirs in skill level, but I tend to go all over the place with my subject matter, mostly keeping it fantasy/faery related, but with little coherence between the pieces to tie them together and make them recognizable as Amyla's art. Anyone familiar with Amy Brown's art, for instance, would instantly recognize her work by its subject matter and technique.
I've thought of this before, and am considering again the possibility of doing a series of faery pieces. Not necessarily the classical, Victorian-esque faeries you usually see, but faeries in my style-- a bit whimsical, a bit magical, a bit dark, a bit scary. Light and dark, refinement and chaos, beauty and predator in a single entity.
I've already got one that would be perfect for the series--
. Also, I just sketched a woman turning into a panther. Dunno if that'd fit in the series, but it was one of those images that hit hard enough to take me by the brain and shake me until I gave in and sketched it. It's kinda awkward looking still; I need to find references so I can refine, but I might pursue that as a painting as well. (Caution: enlarged version isn't work safe)
Won't have much time for painting today, of course, but I'll hit Monday at a run. Metaphorically speaking.
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Date: 2012-11-22 05:49 pm (UTC)and don't we all identify with our work like this? I for one am feeling rather disconnected and lost...and very much not worth much - and it reflects in my lack of/view of my work.
But you have nothing to worry about, love. Your art is such quality and definitely says 'Amyla'!! Gorgeous...
*HUGS*
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Date: 2012-11-23 09:31 pm (UTC)It feels good to be doing art again. I just go through phases where I can't do anything, and phases where I just can't seem to stop.
I know all too well what it feels like to be so disconnected, lost, and without worth. It's so very,very hard to get out of that mindset, especially if it's been, subtly or not-so-subtly, ingrained into your consciousness by everyone around you. I wish I could give some tried-and-true method for overcoming that, but I have yet to discover one. I can say, however, that even though we haven't interacted very much as of yet, you seem like a lovely, talented, and worthwhile individual, and I'm glad to "know" you through this cyberspace connection. :)
Big hugs!
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Date: 2012-11-24 02:27 am (UTC)Ohh, love the feel of creating (even as I'm not really trustful of my creations anymore. Ack.) A pure and delicious feeling. And BOY do I understand the stop-start.
Ahhh...everyone has been encouraging and sweet. Unfortunately, it only takes one voice (from someone I admire) and usually a statement taken out of context (damn my brain) for my resolve to be shaken. It has been a while since I've written the Doctor. And I'm afraid I don't write him WELL. So...there's that. But other than my own self-destructive ego, everyone (even hubby) is more than supportive. Which always leaves me slightly confused (low self esteem I'm sure) but warm.
You are a dear, sweet creature. Thank you for saying that. And it is a real pleasure to know you, dear - and delight in your talent and read about your life. Thank you for all that you share.
*SMISHES*